The might of words

Around 1800 there was an artillery officer in Napoleon's army, he noticed that a lot of soldiers kept getting shot at night.

This was because they would have to use a light to read messages and that light could be seen and then shot at by enemy snipers.

So, this officer named Charles Barbier, decided to try and come up with a method whereby the soldiers could read messages without the need for light, or indeed their eyes.

He began to develop a method called 'ecriture nocturne', night writing, but it was slow and too complicated for the soldiers to learn.

However, a young 12 year boy heard about this work, he had been blinded playing with an awl in his fathers workshop when he was younger.

So, this boy met with Charles Barbier and he agreed with the soldiers, the system was indeed too complicated and so he set about simplifying it.

He reduced the dots per letter (from the original 12 to 6) and also reduced the number of letters in the alphabet, to a form of shorthand.

3 years later and that boy, now 15 years old, had a working method of reading by touch rather than sight and that boys name was Louis Braille.

And just to give some context to the enormity of this achievement - today in the US alone there are around 85,000 people who are totally blind, of those who have learned braille, 90% are employed, of those that have not learnt braille, 33% are employed.

So, it's a pretty damn important invention - invented for one purpose, but used for quite another.

As Dave Trott says:

"one type of person discovers something, a different type of person applies it"

And the modern day example he uses to express this is Steve jobs, one of the most creative people of our time, who did not personally invent a single thing.

Creativity is the back bone of our world, it is what shapes us, helps us to grow, stimulates and nourishes us. From changing lives to saving lives, it simply cannot be under-estimated.

And as ever, this wonderful story and so many others are to be found, beautifully communicated in Dave Trott's new book 'The Power Of Ignorance', interestingly one of the key reasons why, I believe, I happened to be a pretty good management consultant - I was and still am unafraid to ask the questions, ignorant or otherwise, because I am afraid of solving the wrong problem, far more than looking ignorant, or stupid, or simply being a pain in the arse and the result of that over many years, is the creation of a lot of pretty good solutions, that actually answer the right exam question.

As ever, food for thought as we never know when will need these random dots, nor the courage to ask the seemingly silly questions and one day those dots might not be quite so random, we might not feel quite so silly and therefore we might just create a connection that really does change the world.

Of late, there seems to have been a number of difficult situations I have been faced with and I am constantly thinking about how I can better deal with them and not become embroiled in a viscous circle of angst, fear and hurt and therefore ultimately extending the amount of suffering I subject myself and others to - because it's just not very nice and I'm sick of lying awake at night going over and over things in my mind, with no obvious end or resolution in sight, very often because there isn't one.

So, what is it that we can do when faced with seemingly unfair, hurtful and insensitive events/circumstances, over which it feels it like we we have absolutely no control and and are often blind-sided by them in the first place?

The first thing I've decided to try and do, is not to take it personally. When we come up against negative circumstances, comments or actions, we generally assume it is because of something we have done or said, or it is because we believe there is something wrong or lacking in us.

The reality is often quite the opposite. The actions we are encountering are generally about the person or environment that they are coming from - fear, angst, pain, which is ultimately being passed on to others because there is neither the awareness or availability of emotional tools, to deal with the root causes which have driven the situation in the first place - which is hardly surprising, as an emotional education is sadly lacking in our modern day society.

Secondly, I have decided not to respond in the moment but to step back and force myself to pause, to reflect and to sleep on it, because if not it will be my ego, my fear, my pain that responds and two wrongs have never made a right.

Thirdly, I have decided that sometimes life is just unfair, sh*tty and people and circumstances can feel terribly unkind, but that does not mean that I have to be too. Therefore sometimes we just have to sit with this uncomfortable truth and feel uncomfortable about it - interestingly, I have found that after a while that discomfort does become more bearable and more irrelevant to my everyday existence.

And fourthly and finally for now, I have decided to simply accept whatever it is that is beyond my control, let it go and move on. My days of pushing boulders up hills are over, I simply do not have the motivation nor energy.

Now, that may bring sadness and grief as I let go of my expectations or my relationship with something or someone, but again it does become more bearable with the passing of time, whereas staying in the moment of suffering and constantly replaying the hurt, rejection and unfairness of it, simply means that I re-live the same pain, time and time again.

And that is the most damaging thing of all, because not only do we then choose to constantly carry our own pain, but we also choose to carry another's too.

Life is just too short, just let it go and move on.

Did you know that it is widely believed that Greensleeves was composed by Henry VIII for his then love Anne Boleyn? And that Henry VIII was in fact a talented composer?

Much later on, Greensleeves became the well known tune that children would be delighted to hear as the ice cream van entered their streets.

Interestingly isn't it that this music moved through all of that time, from generation to generation, without the internet or social media.

And this is important is to remind us all, that it is always the content, not the medium, that will stand the test of time.

Before our technological revolution we had word of mouth and after whatever the next revolution will be, will we still have word of mouth.

So, please pour your soul into your content and the purpose of your work and then just choose the best medium to share it on, but do not get too attached to that medium because it will change - I'm pretty sure Henry VIII wasn't thinking about how Greensleeves would reach the masses when he wrote it, I think he was just trying to get laid.

So, as Bill Bernbach said "our proper area of study are simple, timeless, humans truths".

And I read this story along with so many others, which really make me think about what it is to be human and pique my curiosity, in one of Dave Trott's many brilliant books.

Dave Trott is an advertising guru, brilliant copywriter and seriously amusing and informative author.

Now, my industry is not advertising, but on the basis that if I only read things within my sphere of knowledge, then how will I ever expand my sphere of knowledge, or enable my thinking to grow? So, I read lots of random stuff, creating lots of random dots, that eventually mean something, at some time and this seems to be one of them today, so I thought I'd share it.

The point is not to worry about which platform you use, the number of likes or dislikes, but instead to focus on the intent, truth and value of what you do and I genuinely believe that is enough.

You want to change the world then expand you mind, every single day of your life.

It doesn't matter by how little, 5 mins is enough.

It doesn't matter by what medium, observe the falling leaves, reflect on your life, read a page in a book, or listen to a play on the radio.

It doesn't matter on what subject, any learning will exercise your neurons and create new pathways, new routes between them and that means every day is an opportunity for growth and growth means life.

But here's the thing, I think we are all far too constrained in our approach and attitude to learning. Because we associate it with hard work, often unhappiness (I still remember my dreaded geography lessons), a lack of choice, stress and pressure.

Because that's largely what out education system does to us from a young age, it uses comparison and tests and focuses on rigid curriculums devoid of emotions, with too many 'dry' facts, far too dis-connected from the world we live in right here, right now.

So, we breath a sigh of relief when our school days are over and we are released into the big wide world.

But the reality is, we are curious animals with an inherent thirst for knowledge and growth and ultimately change.

Learning is a vital bedrock for our mental and physical wellbeing.

It is a way we can connect with our fellow human beings, become more understanding, loving and compassionate and less frustrated, scared and angry.

It allows us to come up with new solutions to help alleviate the pain, suffering and misery we see.

It gives us hope that we can learn to do things better, that our history does not become our future but informs it.

And it gets us out of bed each and everyday, because otherwise we might just miss something we would really rather not.

So, please remember, it doesn't matter what it is, it doesn't matter how random or seemingly irrelevant it may seem to your life today, just be open to learning something new, because it just might be the very thing that you really needed to know.

One of the things I've observed about social media is the type of post that inspires people to engage.

And it's seems to me that we are mainly drawn to two types of posts - those that invoke our heartfelt compassion and empathy and those that invoke our egos and strong opinions.

You could say that they are at opposite ends of the spectrum, but the thing they have in common are feelings - the former, is from our soul and vulnerability and ultimately a place of love for our fellow human beings, whilst the latter comes from our egotistical self, driven mainly by fear and a need for control resulting in a competitive and sometimes aggressive relationship with our fellow human beings.

And it's interesting that there are actually so many more content rich and kinder posts, that are far less dramatical but much more informative and interesting, if only we could be bothered to read them and reflect a little deeper on them, which remain unread, all because they do not create a sense of drama for us.

And that's sad and quite frankly, a worrying reflection on our behaviour - this need for drama ahead of quiet, well thought out and often more educational content, is hugely detrimental to our society, often leading to knee jerk reactions, an absence of context, a lack of genuine understanding, wrong decisions and of course, far deeper divisions with our fellow human beings, which can only serve to further hamper our growth and creates more not less challenges for society as a whole.

So, I urge you to take a little longer when you scroll, read a little more deeply, follow the threads, do your own research and as a result, learn a little bit more.

I use self-depreciating and dark humour quite a lot.

And that's because I find some of my quirks and stereotype behaviours very funny.

And life can be difficult and heartbreaking and sometimes humour is all we are left with, to help us cope and process that which we would rather not.

So, the other week when I made one of my typical stereotype jokes about myself, I was somewhat taken aback by the passive aggressive and judgemental response from a group of younger women, who under the guise of fighting for equality, thought it was ok to try and silence me.

I'm not sure they had any idea how entitled, arrogant and naive they actually came over as.

And that is not equality.

Equality does not come from words alone, whether they be inspiring or threatening.

Equality does not come from reducing the freedom of another, whether that be their speech or thoughts.

Equality does not come from blame, resentment, division or frustration.

And equality certainly does not come from judgement, assumptions, the ignorance of thinking you know better, nor demoting another to suit your perspective of the world.

No, equality comes from actually 'walking the talk', from authentic role models, from true leadership, from courage, from truth, from forgiveness, from understanding, from empathy and from an ability to see the person before their gender or anything else.

So, when a group of women who have yet to make their mark on this world, or put their blood sweat and tears into it, in order to make it a better place, feel they are in a position to judge another, this is what I have to say:

“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.” Theodore Roosevelt

I know without a shadow of a doubt that I have done my bit for equality and continue to do so every single day of my life, so to those who may judge my words and my deeds, you are not in the arena and until you are, your words are of no use to me.

Did you know that there are many Acropolises across the world, they word actually means 'cidatel' which translates as fortress, typically on high ground.

The Acropolis in Greece is the most famous and is the symbol of democracy, the Greek civilisation and the beginning of Western civilisation.

The Acropolis houses a number of important things including the temple of Athena Nike.

Now Athena and Nike were two separate Greek Goddesses - Athena was the protectress of Athens, goddess of war, handicraft, and practical reason whilst Nike was the goddess of victory, but the two became interwoven and also happened to be best friends.

They both had many strengths but also some weaknesses. Athena was ruled by reason, so could often lack compassion and empathy and be out of touch with emotions, whilst Nike was ruled by victory, at any price.

And what has this to do with modern day, you may ask?

Well, Athena was and still is by far one of the most revered goddesses, which was some feat given that she lived in a male dominated world where women were generally seen as sexual objects only - in fact despite Hephaestus (another god) trying and failing to rape her, she maintained her virginity throughout her mortal life - where there is a will there is a way.

However, her legacy has lead us to adore intellect and reason above all else, often leaving empathy and compassion as the poor relations.

Indeed, we see the consequences of being out of touch with our emotions and that of others, each and everyday, both in our physical and mental wellbeing and in the way we are able to connect with one another at a deep and meaningful level.

On the other hand Nike became the name we all now know as a world leading sports provider - interestingly 'just do it' a key logo for the Nike brand was actually inspired by Gary Gilmore, a serial killer who said, just before he was executed "let's do it" - I'm not sure that's the most sensitive of logos.

And track start Allyson Felix left Nike in 2019 after being offered more than 70% less in her sponsorship deal, after daring to have a child. She has since gone on to launch her own sports brand 'Saysh' and win an awful lot of competitions (she has the record for holding the most medals ever won for both men and women putting her ahead of Usain Bolt).

So, what do these 2 goddesses and a visit to the Acropolis tell us?

That only focusing on someone's strengths in dangerous, we have as much to learn from their weaknesses too.

Ask yourself, do we really want to live in a world that has reason without empathy and encourages victory at any cost?

And if not, how do we balance these equations to achieve a better world for all?

The ancient Greeks may have started the conversation, but they have certainly not finished it.

We have much to learn from history and our own history to create, right here, right now.

Did you know that over 200 Japanese pensioners volunteered to work in Fukushima?

After the nuclear crisis in Fukushima, Japan, a group of Japanese pensioners volunteered to face the dangers of radiation instead of the young.

Calling themselves the Skilled Veterans Corp, the group of retired engineers and other professionals volunteered to take on the danger that working in the area could bring.

The cancer they could develop from the radiation could take 20–30 years to develop, meaning they would no longer be alive to experience it.

Most extraordinary people don't even know they are extraordinary, they just don't allow the norms, what others think of them, or tell them to do dilute what they decide to do, or how they decide to be.

Most great leaders don't set out to be great leaders, they just have the courage and humility to do what needs to be done from a greater perspective than that of their own needs, or sense of comfort, or safety.

Most great inventors don't set out to be great inventors, they just value curiosity, progress and learning more than they fear failure or ridicule.

Most great writers don't set out to be great writers, they just write honestly and without constraints from their observations and imagination, often seeing themselves as lone wolves simply observing or imagining what the pack does, in order to help others see what is often hiding in plain sight.

Most great friends don't set out to be great friends, they just love for the sheer joy and satisfaction of doing so, rather than a need for a two way transaction.

Most great people don't set out to be great people, they just get up each and everyday, doing the very best they can for whoever and whatever comes across their path, with a good intent despite their own challenges or fears.

And therein lies the irony of being an extraordinary person, it is not something you achieve based on external validation, or reading a best selling self-improvement book, or following a methodology being peddled by someone who deems themselves as successful, it's simply the daily practice of living beyond one's own ego and fears and committing to something bigger because it really matters.

And that something bigger could be inventing a cure for cancer, or facilitating world peace, or saving young people from dying from radiation exposure, or it could simply mean being kind, or looking for the best in people, or holding another's hand even when no one else can.

We think that we all look fine on the outside don't we?

But the builder had to come alone because his mate did not turn up for work that day, because his nerves were so bad he could not bare to face another soul.

The lady in the hairdressers was having a rare treat to take her mind off her husbands descent into depression and her feeling of hopelessness as she was forced to watch, unable to stop it.

The gentleman stood in the queue at the supermarket, was buying food he knew he would not eat, but could not face the fact that his wife had died and was therefore still buying enough for their evening meal together.

The lady at the post office was beyond relieved when she received a smile and asked if she was ok, as she had taken several verbal assaults about the constant queue and missing parcels during the day.

The vet looked like she had not slept for a month, as a year later and she is valiantly struggling on, running a large surgery on her own, as there is a national shortage of vets, but her love for her job keeps her going.

And these are merely a few examples of the struggles I see people carrying each and everyday.

The fact is most people are not actually ok.

There are so many traumas and challenges being carried by so many people, much of them in isolation - ironically not shared because of the fear of judgement or repercussions that will only serve to increase their burden, when it would, in fact, give others the permission to say 'me too'.

Life will always be challenging, we will all have periods of overwhelm, sadness and loss.

And the trick is not to ignore them or hide them from others, but to use the priceless gifts we all have of connection, kindness and courage, to share your true self and to stand with another, as we all try our very best to navigate our way through this mad thing called life.

So, no matter how sh*t your day, please remember to keep smiling at your fellow human beings and allow them to smile back at you too, because you might just find that you have much more in common than you think and that smile might just be the connection that changes the day for all.

Frustratingly and sadly I am still seeing lots of posts on social media and in particular LinkedIn, that start with "I don't normally share my personal life on here but....."

I really do struggle with the duplicity of a world that on one hand says 'it's ok not be ok, please reach out for help, please talk to us' and then on the other hand says 'but you should keep your professional persona separate from your personal one', in fact I even know of some organisations that have really quite strict policies on it.

And my struggle is this:

1. An organisation first and foremost, is a group of human beings coming together to achieve something and the really successful achievement of that 'something', only comes when people are genuinely committed to a purpose greater than themselves, in an environment where they are celebrated and trusted to be themselves, otherwise it's pretty difficult for them to contribute anything meaningful, which will arguably make the purpose worthwhile, because that meaning can only come from a place of genuine authenticity.

2. We know and it has been proved time and time again, that people are their most creative, productive and motivated, when they feel safe and we know that people only feel safe when they feel able to share all that they are and dream to be, without fear of judgement or prejudice.

3. We also know that the really interesting bits of people generally lie in their stories, their passions and their whole lives, not in a sterile, carefully worded CV.

4. And perhaps most importantly we know that real, deep and meaningful connection between human beings, without which trust simply cannot be established, comes from the ability to share our vulnerabilities, wounds, fears and weaknesses.

So, you can perhaps see why starting any post with an apology about sharing who you really are, is not that inspiring or liberating for me, nor I doubt the person who has written it.

When on earth did it become the exception to the rule, to share all of who we really are?

Surely these are the bits we all seek and would do far more for psychological safety, diversity and our mental health than any transactional policy or bland set of values pinned to the office wall.

I'm not sure why, but the current LinkedIn algorithm seems to think I need a job as it keeps putting recruitment posts in my feed - this is clearly an automated process as I'm not really that employable tbh, for several reasons:

1. I like my freedom and I have hugely diverse interests (from consulting, to writing, to sustainable living, to end of life support as a soul midwife), therefore I only work on an associate basis and at 50 years old, I'm not really in the market for a full time, full steam ahead career.

2. I'm experiencing a tough menopause, so whilst I can run the world some days, there are others where I can barely boil the kettle.

3. I still have a relatively young family (I know I started late, clearly my husbands fault, as he didn't turn up when I was younger) and their needs always take priority.

4. After many years of consulting, I've become acutely aware of what I'm good at, what I'm bad at, what really inspires me and what does not, therefore I can be a bit picky about what I do and do not do - working with people at end of life also focuses me enormously on how important time is and therefore I am discerning about how I spend it.

5. And finally based on the posts in my feed, I'm relieved that I am not currently looking for a full-time employed role, because if I was, I might be somewhat de-motivated.

Sadly, there are several posts that I have seen that simply say something along the lines of 'we are hiring, DM/contact the team below', followed by a post they have simply shared, which has clearly been written by a marketing team relying on brand rather than any real substance or detail.

So, why does this repel me so? For several reasons:

1. It comes over as arrogant and shows a lack of understanding of people, to think in this day and age, that they will simply flock to you because you have said 'we are hiring'. Offering and receiving a job offer is a two way process, it is as much about what the organisation has to offer, what they stand for and most importantly, their culture, as it is about the people who apply. So, as a minimum please put some time and words into articulating this.

2. How on earth do I know what you are actually hiring for, therefore how on earth am I meant to decide whether or not I'm interested? It's like launching a new product without actually telling people what it does and why it would be of use to them, but we should buy it anyway because it's a certain brand.

3. But most importantly, if you do not have the time or inclination to put some of yourself into this type of post, what does that tell me about the culture you are asking me to join? One that does not think about how they are being received by people, or indeed what people need in order to be inspired to action. And if you cannot inspire people to action at this early stage, what hope is there later down the line?

So, in my humble opinion, if you want to attract good people, you need to write a good post.

I'm on holiday at the minute in a very beautiful Greek village, in a very beautiful Greek house, with my very beautiful family and we are here for a month.

And each day on my personal social media, I post funny anecdotes about our antics. And the reason I make them funny is because I do not want to post some narcisstic stuff that says 'oh look at me and my perfect life', because I believe that social media can have a hugely detrimental effect on people's self esteem and mental health, as they compare themselves to others, through a looking glass that does not exist.

No, I use my personal posts to share my life as a comedy because one of my favourite things to do in the world, is to make people smile.

But behind the jokes and funny pictures there are some real struggles.

My teenage kids do not really want to be here, they want to be at home with their mates and their consoles, in a place where they can roam freely. There are arguments many nights over dinner between them and with us. They are getting bored with this paradise and cannot believe we have stripped them of their life for a whole month.

And most of the time, we are seen as an oppressive enemy, who have never known what it is like to be a teenager and who know f*ck all about life and the consequences of the choices they are making.

So, you may ask what is the point I am trying to make, well it's three fold:

1. No matter what social media tells you about the holiday season, there will be some sh*t hidden behind the scenes and there really is no 'perfect family'.

2. Teenagers are hard f*cking work a lot of the time and if you are experiencing this, you are not the unlucky 1 in a billion person who has given birth to a sociopath, just the parent of a normal (albeit sometimes annoying, selfish and ungrateful) teenager, a phase I am told that does pass passes, I f•cking hope so.

3. And I believe that Jordon Peterson is absolutely right when he says parenting is a 2 person job. I certainly could not cope with the struggles in our house alone, in fact it is generally my husband who steps in to do the 'real ' parenting when things get out of hand, which is quite often, as I'm usually an emotional wreck wondering where the f*ck it all went wrong. Now, this is not in any way saying single parenting is not ok, quite the opposite actually - knowing how god damn hard it is to be a parent, only makes me admire the courage, resilience and sacrifices single parents make every single day, more than my words can convey. Any single parent has my greatest respect, for you are surely doing a job I know I am ill equipped to do.

So, the next time you see the shiny social media posts that leave you feeling inadequate, or sad, or that you are not cutting it as a parent, or that your life is sh*t compared to others, fear not, the whole truth and nothing but the whole truth is absolutely not being shared.

I received a comment on a social media post that has enraged me. It has enraged me because an assumption was made about my husband.

This is not the first time people have made negative assumptions about my husbands role in the stories I share - in fact I left a number of 'supposedly' supportive social media groups for mums returning to the workplace, after receiving a number of aggressive comments on why it was me and not my husband who had given up their career in the first place.

So, for clarity I thought I would address, head on, all of the assumptions I have received on-line over the years.

1. My husband and I are a team and as such we make decisions together.

2. My husband did not ask me nor did he expect me to give up my career to become a home maker and full time mum, he would have gladly put aside his own, had it been what I wanted, but it was not.

3. I am not dependent on my husband salary, we view the salary as ours, earned by working as a team, carving out the roles required between us based on choice and who is best placed to do the role.

4. My husband does not expect me to shoulder all of the domestic chores or childcare, there is a practicality to how much he can do given he has a full time job, even so there are many nights he comes in after a long day, cooks dinner, clears up and provides emotional support when he sees how shattered and stressed I am by the day.

5. My husband is hugely supportive of my need to have time for myself outside of the role of being a mother and wife and pro-actively ensures this happens - for example this weekend I am off on a retreat whilst he cooks, cleans, shops, ferries the kids around and is forced to game with them on the PS5.

6. When it all gets too much and I feel lost, unseen, unvalued, unworthy or a failure (based on many of society's standards), he is the first person to pick me up, remind me of my value, that I am the glue that holds our world together, the support he will gladly give me should I want to change my role and how very loved I am.

My posts on SAHM/Ds, the role of women in society, the menopause, grief, mental health, changing the way we work and life in general, are always about my experiences in the wider society - in fact it is precisely because of the psychological safety, equality, freedom and unconditional love that my husband and children provide, that I have the confidence and support to be able to use my voice to say all that I do.

So, please so not use my posts to make negative assumptions about men, or about one of the most selfless, brave and kind human beings I have ever been blessed to know, my husband.

The deeds of a few should not be used to assume the worst of the majority and I remain hugely uncomfortable with the increasingly negative narrative I am seeing surrounding the role of men in our society - we are all human beings first and foremost and I say again, we do not empower women by demonising men.

Grief is our lifelong companion - she is beautiful and complex, teaching us all there is to know about love, loss and living a life that reaches beyond any human transactions, to that of a soulful existence that no death can take away.

Grief arrives with our birth, for each moment passed, for each day gone, for each friend lost, for each experience finished, for each relationship over, for each dream spent and for each life ended.

Grief is our personal orchestra, playing our own unique symphony, until it reaches its final crescendo.

The first few instruments start slowly and quietly, as we find our notes.

And as we allow grief to have her place, the notes join up into a symphony which becomes longer and deeper and more beautiful and unique with the passage of time.

Until one day, each of us will reach our final crescendo, a completed symphony that only ever gets played, in full, once - some are short, some are long, some are so full of love and some are so full of angst, but all have their own unique beauty and story to tell.

And then comes the silence, the purity of nothing to allow our soul to find its way home, before our audience finds it voice to ask for more, which, of course, they cannot have.

And in the face of such finality, the weight of love feels completely unbearable for so many.

But it is in fact, not the weight of the love that is unbearable, but the absence of another to share the weight with.

And so, we have to learn to carry that love ourselves and to welcome the sadness, the loneliness, the heartbreak and the tears as signs, reminders of all of the love we have received, given and indeed have yet to receive and give.

Because love does not rely on a physical body to be present, it walks with us everyday of our lives, often invisible to the eye but the most intimate and present of all companions.

And that is the essence of grief, it's just love that needs to be held in a different way.

Addiction, a way to escape from pain and suffering.

It is commonly accepted that there are 3 requirements for addiction:

1. Product

2. A person susceptible to being addicted

3. Avoidance of something - a trauma, pain, suffering.

There are many things to be addicted to. We tend to focus on smoking, alcohol and drugs.

But what about the silent addiction that lurks in the shadows and does so much harm to us all?

I would argue that most of us, in one way or another, are addicted to the avoidance of uncomfortable truths.

You may not know this.

You may not know this, because we live in a world designed to distract you from it.

The problem is that by avoiding our uncomfortable truths, we cannot move through them, therefore they cannot be resolved. They just get ‘parked’ for another time. And that’s where we find addiction. The never ending circle of doing something else to avoid facing our truth.

Mine is financial. I use spending as a crutch to avoid facing my uncomfortable truths. But the problem is, I then create another uncomfortable truth - debt. So, I spend more and the never ending circle continues.

But it doesn’t have to be this way.

It’s ok to have uncomfortable truths.

It’s ok to share them.

It’s ok to live with them.

Please don’t’ get distracted, face your truth.

Rejection - ‘the act of refusing to accept, use, or believe someone or something’

The word ‘rejection’ actually comes from the Latin noun rēicere, which means "to throw back”.

Interesting isn’t it that in both cases, rejection is about the giver of it, not the receiver.

And therein lies the irony.

Rejection is rarely about us.

Because people can only meet you at the same level as they meet themselves.

And sometimes that fits and sometimes it doesn’t.

And even if it fits now, it doesn’t mean it will always fit.

Because we all move to our own beat, at our own pace.

And sometimes that’s the same and sometimes it’s not.

So, the truth is that rejection is just a mis-match, with someone or something at a point in time.

And the only person who can really reject you, is actually you.

Anything else is just you taking the path that you are meant to take.

So, welcome rejection for what it actually is, not what we fear it to be.

Because the reality of it will set you free, whilst the fear of it will shackle you to an optical illusion and stop you from ever being able to embrace who you really are.

So, pease remember not to reject yourself and to see it for what it really is.

It's ok to enjoy a life of prosperity and privilege;

It's ok to enjoy your achievements and the fruits of your labour;

It's ok to enjoy treating yourself and your family; and

It's ok to enjoy any luck that comes your way.

But

It is not ok to brag about how much you have;

It is not ok to look down upon others because their resources do not match yours;

It is not ok to dismiss another's achievements because they are less then you deem worthy; and

It's absolutely not ok to judge a person based on what they have rather than who they are.

Sadly, I continue to see this behaviour on a daily basis and I have to wonder whether the people who I have witnessed abusing their blessed position in life, by using all that they have to belittle others, have any idea of just how dislikable and isolated they make themselves?

Is humility, kindness and empathy really beyond their reach?

Please don't become an ignorant arse with an inflated sense of self-worth and entitlement, by valuing money more than love for your fellow human beings.

And as we all do with time with the passing of time, I do reflect on the decisions I’ve made, the path I’ve chosen, the things I walked away from, the things I walked towards and the person I’ve become.

And no I’m not who I thought I’d be, nor doing what I’d planned to, all those years ago when mortality wasn’t even in my vocabulary and the world was full with nothing but possibilities.

I won’t have the most successful business woman on my headstone after all. I won’t be leaving my children huge amounts of money or a mansion and they won’t be able to tell stories of their mum who reached great heights in her career.

And that’s ok, it really is.

A loving wife, mum and caring human being is just fine for my headstone - and if I’ve done my job right, my kids won’t need the money, or story’s or status - they will make their own reality, tread their own path and make their very own dent in the universe.

Success comes in all shapes and sizes and sometimes it’s not quite what you had planned, but that doesn’t mean it’s not right for you.

So, please don’t ever underestimate yours, whatever it looks like.

I have 6 really important rules that matter to me and I think they do a pretty good job of helping me to stay sane and grounded, most of the time.

And the point of these rules is not to beat myself up when I fail to live up to them (which I often do), but to help me to correct my course if I feel that I am getting a little lost - and that's a really big deal in terms of our perspective when it comes to setting ourselves goals, objectives or rules.

They are not the stick with which to beat ourselves when we fail to live up to them, they are the stick to help us find our way when we cannot see what is in front of us.

Your rules or whatever it is that you want to call them, I've no doubt will be different to mine, or maybe not, it does not matter as long as they are yours and as long as they are used to support you, not to berate, compare or belittle you.

And here are mine:

1. Having a family and then career, they are not mutually incompatible but I have purposely put family first otherwise what is it all for?

2. Earning money and being socially responsible. 'But for the grace of god go I.' Never miss an opportunity to help someone less fortunate than me, who am I to judge how or why they got there and what is the point of money if it makes us forget our humanity? No one ever became poor from giving, quite the opposite.

3. Being logical and sensitive. Using my brain to solve a problem does not absolve me from caring about how others feel and how that solution is or is not offered - without compassion what sets us apart from a robot? We must always remember to meet others where they are, not where we want them to be - that's just misguided and generally unhelpful judgement.

4. Respecting rules but always having the courage to challenge them when required. "All it takes for evil to prosper is for a few good men to do nothing’" need I say more?

5. Inspiring others to feel good about themselves but not to feed my ego, or manipulate, or gain something for myself. Helping others is the food we need to feed our soul. It is the expectation of something in return that causes our suffering and turns our gift into an unwanted burden which awakens the ego, who is perhaps one of the most dangerous, judgemental and mean spirited friends that we are often foolish enough to entertain.

6. Always give freely with grace and good intent. It does not matter if this is a 'one way' street, or if it is not met with gratitude or care. The only thing that matters is my humanity and kindness. At the end of the day it’s my conscience I answer to not anyone else’s.

And these are the things that stop me getting lost, perhaps you could write your list so that next time you get lost, you too will have a stick to help you feel you way forward and lean on whilst you work out your next best step.

Many years ago I used to smoke.

I started at 13 years old because I wanted to hang out with the older girls - it worked, I looked cool and I got in the gang.

As an aside it may amuse you to know (I say amuse as it is so far from our imagination now), that I was able to buy 1 benson and hedges fag for 6 pence from my local sweet shop on the way to school, clearly not a very profitable line for them, as in those days it was 80 pence for a packet of 10 (I know as my dinner money was £1 so I could afford a packet of fags with enough change left for an iced bun at school at break time), therefore they were making a loss, bizarrely.

Anyway, at first I hated it and had to work really hard to get used to it, can you believe the irony of that.

Then, when I was in my 30's I gave up smoking twice - the first time when it was banned in bars and I was too vain to stand smoking a fag outside in the rain, but I started again after a sabbatical in Greece where everyone smoked, but found the taste so repellant that I had to start on menthol cigarettes to make then more palatable and the second and final time, when I decided to have children, as I was too vain to push a pram holding a fag - neither time had anything to do with my health, interestingly enough.

But the real point to this post is to share one of the things I missed most about smoking - the intimacy and connection it gave me with others.

Many may not remember the specially allocated smoking rooms in offices but I certainly do, quite fondly as it happens. I remember popping into them at regular intervals during my working day and that is where I made many relationships that transcended departments and seniority levels, were hugely interesting and were based on people sharing themselves, warts and all, not just their jobs or status.

We were just all human beings desperate for a fag and a break from pretending to be someone else - in fact many times people who did not even smoke would come with me, just to be part of that connection.

Now, I do not for one minute miss smoking itself, I constantly smelt and had to frequently have my teeth cleaned to remove the stains and god knows what state my lungs were in, but there was something in the act which enabled people to step out of their everyday world, away from their stresses and strains, with their fellow human beings all doing the same - there was a connection made based equality and comradely that I rarely get to see now.

So, no we definitely should not bring back smoking rooms, but yes we should definitely look at why so much was gained from them and create new environments to give people that space, pause for thought and human connection, in a somewhat healthier and safer way.

"There is a thin line that separates laughter and pain, comedy and tragedy, humor and hurt."  Erma Bombeck

I was taken to an appalling comedy show the other week that crossed that line.  

I left at the interval.  

I left because in my humble opinion it was a) not funny b) inhumane and c) in conflict with my values.  

The downward spiral started when the comedian asked the audience to raise their hands based on the colour of their skin. She then moved on to sexuality and religion.  

She then told the audience that we all needed to try harder, as we were not diverse enough.  

And all the while I could feel the rage rising inside of me, rage at the fact she was segregating human beings on the same basis that have cost millions of life and caused some of the most traumatic and savage suffering in the history of humankind.  

I do not see the colour of someone's skin when I walk into a room, I see a fellow human being.  

I do not see someone's sexuality when I walk into a room, I see a human capable of love.  

I do not see someone's faith or religion when I walk into a room, I see a human capable of commitment to something beyond themselves.  

I do not see someone's background when I walk into a room, I see a human with a story, rich in lessons.  

I do not see someone's status when I walk into a room, I see a human making their way in the world the best way they can.  

And the minute someone tries to polarise, reduce, berate or create inequality for another human based on their perception of what the colour of their skin, gender, faith, religion, culture or background means, I see prejudice and racism and bias and a complete and utter lack of humanity.  

And if I am going to look for anything when I walk into a room of people, I will look for a smile, an act of kindness, a word of care, open arms, the tinkle of a laugh, an energy that brightens the room, words of wisdom to be shared and experiences of life beyond my own.  

And that is why I refused to sit in that audience listening to someone with such little respect for her fellow human beings.  

That is not comedy, that is inhumanity.

So, it's mothers day today and my journey as a mother was a bit bumpy.

After our first child, I carried on building a business and pretty much left his care to the nanny. I was a bit sh*t at motherhood it has to be said - my son would generally ask for the nanny before me.

After our second child, I laid in the hospital bed checking my emails and went back to work 2 weeks later, in the midst of the financial crash, resentful and full of angst - I still cry huge tears of sadness when I look back on that time.

After our third child, I crumbled with guilt, made the nanny redundant, began the process of dismantling a business, felt a complete failure by societies standards, as it turned out that I could not do it all, started taking anti-depressants and began the process of learning how to be a mum.

And it was hard because I had no idea how to be a mum, I had no 'mum' friends as I'd been far too important being a career women and looking down my nose at women who had time to go to baby and toddler groups, I no longer had a role in the world that (I thought) demanded respect and I lost my financial independence as well as 60% of our income, so the move to the 4 bedroom, 4 bathroom house and Waitrose shops were put on hold.

And then a few weeks later I was at a dinner with my husband when someone asked what I did for a job, I said that I didn't work, I was a SAHM, they then asked "so, what do you do with your time?" I didn't have an answer then and I still don't now.

But that question wounded me deeply and pretty much sums up much of societies view on SAHM/Ds, sadly.

After the initial transition, I found it easy to live with the loss of income and financial freedom, in fact it gave birth to a love of simple and sustainable living. I also learned that my natural self-motivation and curiosity meant I found it easy to create a new structure and new interests that worked around my children.

But to this day, I have never found it possible to accept the lack of respect, the lack of value and the lack of understanding that so many women and men are faced with on a daily basis, all because they chose to focus their time on their families and homes.

As Sandrine Bonnaire poignantly said:

"Our family makes us who we are, defines us totally. When you go to a therapist or have analysis, whatever reason you go in for, they will always bring you back to your family. We're strong or weak according to what family we have. You might have left them long ago, might not even talk to them, but something lingers; we have no choice."

So, perhaps this mothers day and on fathers day, we should remind ourselves that there are equally important roles in life that are not defined as 'work' and it's time that as a society we valued being a carer, a home maker, a parent just a little bit more and extended a little more respect, kindness and understanding to all of those people who have chosen that path - whether through choice or circumstance.

I'm uncomfortable with a culture of empowering women by demonising men, that is not equality just a new form of inequality.

I'm uncomfortable with prioritising women over men for roles rather than simply choosing the right person for the job, because that's not equal opportunities, it's discrimination based on gender.

I'm uncomfortable with celebrating an International Women's day and not an International men's day, because that validates someone based on gender, not who they are as a person.

I'm uncomfortable with success for women being based solely on career achievements, with little or no regard for some of the other hugely important roles women play, such as being home makers, mothers, carers or volunteers.

I'm uncomfortable with being told what equality, empowerment and freedom should mean for a woman, by definition that's a contradiction, I get to chose what it means for me otherwise I am not equal, empowered or free.

And I'm uncomfortable with the perception of how a woman needs to be, to act and to live in order to be acknowledged and celebrated.

Our strength does not come from being a women making it in a mans world, it comes from a desire to see everyone as equal no matter what their gender, faith, culture, background or life choices are.

It comes from compassion, humility, kindness and the courage to forgive the inequalities that have gone before and not to repeat them by dressing them up in a new way.

Human beings should all be celebrated whether they be male or female, in a career or not in a career.

I wanted to share this thought after hearing it from a very wise soul, to help us all as we start our week, to try and help us to retain our perspective, stop the overwhelm and find some calm in amongst the chaos.

When a bird sits on a branch, they are not fearful of the branch breaking, as they have complete faith in their wings and so they sit on the branch with confidence and are able to enjoy it, without actually being dependant on it.

So, no matter what the week may throw at you, or how insurmountable the challenges may seem in the moment, please remember that we are all birds and that we can all trust in ourselves to find a way forward, no matter what.

Broken people don't know they are broken, they just feel angry, resentful and frustrated.

Broken people don't know they are dumping their waste on others, they just shout, wound and blame.

Broken people don't hear the narcissistic content of their conversations, they just see themselves as victims, with no choices or responsibility in their story.

Broken people don't recognise another broken person, they just ensure their story is louder, harder and bigger.

But broken people do not do this because they are bad people, they are just broken people who were never given the emotional tools or support to understand nor mend themselves.

So, the next time you experience a broken person, please remember that whilst you may be wounded, you are not broken, you will heal and those huge cracks that you see, are not yours, just the reality of a broken person too afraid to look at what lies beneath lest they see what lies beneath.

Fear is not always insane or silly or meaningless.

Life can be dangerous, we can get hurt, we can fail, we can get rejected, there is a randomness that lacks rationale and fairness and bad things do happen to good people.

But perversely the science shows that acknowledging and understanding our fears - whether they be realistic or not, does not in fact, make them go away.

No, science shows us something far more important, that shining the light on our fears and then moving forward despite our fears, actually makes us braver.

It engages the part of our being that is ready, willing and able to face challenges. And that is where our growth and the profound lessons in our life are to be found.

Life is not easy and many of our fears will be justified - the thing about 'feel the fear and do it anyway', is that it allows you to experience the part of yourself that is able to cope, grow and often thrive through adversity.

It teaches you to have faith in yourself and that no matter what life throws at you, you will have the ability to catch it and do something worthwhile with it.

So, please don't allow fear to be your jail, because you do have the courage that you need inside of you, it's just waiting for you to allow it to help you to be all that you can.

Every time you promote a woman because she is a woman rather than because she is the best person for the job, you devalue women, your organisation and your values.

An unpopular statement with many I'm sure, but one that needs to be made.

Women deserve equal opportunities and that means the same rules and opportunities apply to us all.

I certainly do not want to be a statistic on someones diversity tick box. I want a position based on my capability, my experience, my values and a genuine acceptance that what I can bring to the role is of value and needed by the organisation.

The questions always remain:

1. Is the person capable of doing the role? Promoting someone beyond their genuine capability is not good for the organisation nor kind to them, we should not be ashamed of who we are nor avoid honest conversations.

2. Has the person earned the role? No one is simply entitled to anything because of who/what they are, we all need to do the work.

3. Does the person have values that can help themselves and the organisation grow? Lots of people might have the experience and skills outlined in your job descriptions, but few will have the passion and commitment required to bring values to life and that's the thing to look for.

Give the role to a human being who can do the very best for the organisation, it's that simple..

I used to work for an organisation that did not have grades on our email signatures - you simply respected people not their status.

That same organisation used to invest a significant amount of money in us each month by hiring a venue, taking us off client work and encouraging us all to spend the day together in a semi-structured environment. We would learn about what the company was up to, its future plans and the wider market, we would have our say, get to share our case studies and then time was made for us to explore our areas of interests with others, forging new relationships and knowledge. We also got time to socialise and have lots of fun with our work colleagues.

Those two things did more for innovation, creativity, productivity and motivation than anything I have ever seen since.

The time I had there was by far the most rewarding of my 25 year career.

And I experienced those practices nearly 2 decades ago now.

So, we do know how to inspire and take care of people, we just need to make a choice and commit the investment to do so.

 I'm afraid I have to say that I do get somewhat frustrated by the constant onslaught of new methods, frameworks and approaches, put forward as a way to increase a teams performance, potential, creativity, innovation or whatever else it is that is the flavour of the day.

Have we forgotten that teams and organisations are simply groups of human beings, working in different environments based on their needs, circumstances, interests, skills and if they are lucky, passions.

So, I would like to remind us that it is not the latest management fad or bestselling book that will make a difference to your team today, but your willingness to understand and observe yourself as a human being - what motivates, triggers, frustrates, angers, scares and inspires you. Because it is only then that you will be able to observe, understand and empathise with the needs and behaviours of others.

And that's when you start to build a team, based on one incredibly simple principle - get to really know your fellow human beings and spend the time building relationships with them based on honesty, fairness and trust.

You can read and study as many methodologies as you like, but nothing is as powerful as good old fashioned humanity.

That's pretty much it.

An organisation is only ever as strong as its people - it will not stand the test of time without good people.

But people are products of their environment.

And that environment is always created by the leaders.

So, if you have a problem with disengaged, demotivated, underperforming people, you need to look at yourselves - not the structures or process.

Because you are the root cause - poor leadership creates poor working environments, it’s that simple.

“Real transformation requires real honesty. If you want to move forward – get real with yourself.” Bryant McGill

Good leaders are not perfect, they do not have all of the answers, they consist of human messiness and vulnerability, just the same as everyone else.

Good leaders are honest, they are courageous, they care, they believe in people and they are not driven by their ego.

Of course they feel fear , it just doesn’t rule them. And that means they can trust and nurture psychologically safe environments.

Of course they struggle with time, they just choose how to spend it wisely, developing others potential, rather than basking in their own glory.

And of course they get it wrong, they just own their mistakes and ask for help to resolve them.

We don’t need perfect leaders, we just need human ones.

It's not always easy being a little different, weird or quirky.

Because you may feel things that others do not and that may be labelled as being 'too over sensitive'.

You may think things, question things, that others do not and that may be labelled as 'challenging' or 'prickly' or 'difficult'.

You feel see things that others do not and that may be labelled as 'paranoid' or 'neurotic'.

You may laugh at things that others do not and that may be labelled as 'inappropriate' or 'lacking boundaries'.

You may need things that others do not and that may be labelled as 'needy' or 'high maintenance'.

And you may do things others that do not and that may be labelled as 'irrational' or 'unpredictable'.

But it's important to remember that all of these labels are judgements, that do not reflect your inadequacies or weaknesses, but those of a society scared of embracing anything other than an optical illusion of 'normal'.

And it's so important to remember this when one of those labels is thrown your way, because otherwise we will simply stop being ourselves and the suffering of being in conflict with one's own self, is far greater than the suffering experienced as a result of labels and judgement.

The reality is, is that we are all a little weird, it is a fundamental condition of being human. The sad thing is that many people never get to fully experience their own joy and contentment, because they live in conflict with themselves, rather than risk stepping out of the shadows and embracing their weirdness.

So, next time a label is thrown at you, have a good, long think about whether it is actually true based on who you really are, or simply a reaction from a person unable, or unwilling to face all that you represent, because that might just remind them of all that they could be, if only they could embrace their weirdness too.

Visibility is everything, especially when you are delivering change.

Because change is emotive and highly susceptible to confusion and chaos.

Therefore a key priority when delivering change is visibility.

And to achieve visibility, you must organise the complex into the simple.

And that means cutting through the bullsh*t and getting to the facts, the root causes and the indisputable truths.

Once you have those foundations, you can establish your route and your mode of travel and take your detours without getting lost.

But most important of all, you can help others see the contribution they are making and the part they need to play.

And that’s how you get a team up and running all in the same direction.

Visibility, time and time again.

The self propelling, infinite circle of value.

Doing what you love and what you are good at, makes you feel special and of value.

When you feel special and of value, you create value for others, willingly and without being commanded.

And the more value you create, the more special and of value you feel.

And that’s the self propelling circle of infinite value, accessible to us all and of benefit to us all.

A perfectly balanced eco system for human motivation and value creation.

So, the lesson here is to marry what you love with what you are good at and then to go out there and do it.

That’s how you help yourself and others too.

And remember where’s there’s a will, there’s always a way.

We live in a world where we are surrounded by unfairness, comparison, competition, instability, judgement and fear.

So, of course we will be anxious, worried and scared at times.

It’s unrealistic to tell ourselves not to be and I believe it can harm us to.

Because it’s just another form of denial. And denial doesn’t make it go away, it just forces it to fester in a hidden corner of our being. And over time it grows and becomes so much more than it should be.

No, we should invite it in. Face reality as it is, not how we would like it to be. Accept that life can be hard, that we will all face suffering in one form or another, but it does not have to define or control us.

Because we can learn to live alongside fear and indeed grow as a result if it.

It needs a voice, to enable us to share our fears and by doing so, we dilute its power.

Because it is only by allowing fear to exist, that we can look at it, to understand it’s root cause and then we can address it.

Nearly all of our worry and anxiety is ultimately a reaction to a perceived or real problem. Once we can chip away at the layers of fear, the solutions will slowly but surely present themselves.

And that is how we learn to feel the fear and do it anyway - not by denying it, but by embracing it for what it is.

The real trick to delivering successful change programmes is not the methodology, structure or process.

No, it’s having a cause that is bigger than the individual - it has a purpose, it matters.

The minute you get into competition, individual achievement and ego driven thinking, it’s game over.

Because change is ultimately about solving a problem. And solutions come from teams of people - some of whom will suggest them, others who will object to them and then others who will solve the objections until eventually a solution is found.

But that behaviour requires trust, creativity and courage.

People have to feel safe enough to suggest new ideas.

People need the freedom to be creative enough to explore new ideas.

And people have to be courageous enough to deliver new ideas and tread the untrodden path.

And these things are only possible when the cause, the outcomes are greater than the individual.

Because that’s where people find their motivation - when they have a purpose.

And that’s where people step into their true potential - when they are of value and can make a difference.

And that’s where teams are made - when making the difference requires the contribution of all individuals, not the fame of one.

Change needs to matter and people need to matter.

Significant amounts of people live their whole life in denial.

Denial of what they really want.

Because it seems out of reach, outside of normality and because admitting what you really want, hurts a lot if you haven’t got it.

But you will never have it if you keep lying to yourself.

All of that energy focused on avoiding the truth, pretence and making do with half a life.

You can only be true to yourself, if you are honest with yourself.

And once you truly embrace what it is that you actually want, you can start pouring all of that energy, passion and focus, into finding creative ways to achieve it.

It’s never too late. It’s never too hard. It’s never too far. You just need to take the first step, no matter how small, then the next and the next.

Be honest, take your step and be who you are meant to be, in whatever way you can.

Results are not achieved by tired, stressed, over-worked people, constantly forced to make compromises and work in environments where anything other than being seen at their desk, flogging their guts out, is deemed as 'not performing'.

And no this is not 'a typical', this is the default state most organisations revert too, when faced with challenges.

It is in times of adversity and seemingly insurmountable circumstances, that we must focus on people.

Because it is not the algorithm, the process, or the system that will find new ways, create new knowledge, or forge new pathways. No, it's people - who have been given the freedom, the environment and the support to create, innovate and deliver.

And a command and control structure, built on fear, dogmatically chaining people to way of working that we have seen time and time again does not work, is not the answer.

Trust your people, empower them but most of all, don't just think outside of the box, be outside of the box.

If you are facing unprecedented times, for the love of god, do not adopt a system that is already failing in normal circumstances, never mind extraordinary ones.

You want results? Don't treat people like a pack of dogs, working to finite instructions, in a finite environment.

Start practising trust instead.

We all think we know, don't we?  

We know better.  

We would do things differently.  

We would have learned the first time round.  

We would not put up with it.  

We would have said no.  

We would not have trusted them.  

The list goes on.  

The list of judgement, of looking at someone else's life and thinking we know better.  

Well, we do not.  

Life is not black and white, it's full of nuance's and shades of grey.  

And most of the time, if you are being met with judgement, fear and resentment, it is unlikely to be about you - it's much more likely to be about the person, exhibiting those traits.  

You've triggered something in them and that something, belongs to them, not you.   

So, do not accept it as yours. Do not allow it to colour your world, or become your journey, because it's not.  

We are each responsible for our own wounds, do not take on the pain of someone else's, no matter how hard they try to persuade you.  

Stay true to yourself, heal your own wounds and be kind to others whilst they heal their's.

In all honesty, I really have no idea a lot of the time, how my thoughts, my actions, my life impacts others.  

And actually, I don't need to know.  

Because it's not about feeding my ego, or constant self-gratification.  

It's about doing my best, with a genuine intent to help others and then simply letting it go.  

That's what helping other people is about. 

It should not be conditional, on getting something back. You help because that's part of being a decent human being, not because you are hustling for individual gain.  

Giving unconditionally, is where true joy and contentment is to be found.  

It's the expectation of something in return, that pollutes the joy of giving - because it makes us resentful, if nothing comes back.   

And it makes us resentful because giving on that basis, is ego centric. 

And the ego always wants something in return, because it's scared of not being the best, of not being seen, of not being someone.  

Whereas giving unconditionally, is simply about doing the best and trusting yourself enough to know, that your actions, your thoughts and you are enough, no matter what.  

Just do your best today and everyday, because no matter what it is, it is always better than doing nothing.

Stop being afraid of you who are.  

Stop hiding your true self from the world.   

Stop allowing others to limit your potential.  

Stop trying to conform to the status quo.  

Because the world needs your creativity, your alternative perspective, your imperfections, your naughtiness, your love and your laughter, otherwise how will we ever be anything other than what we are today?  

Be true to yourself, shake your world until only the truth remains and then have the courage to do something meaningful with it.

Don’t wait for someone else to believe in you.  

Don’t wait for someone else to give you permission, to be you.  

Don’t wait for someone else to save you.  

Don’t wait for someone else to love you.  

Don’t wait for someone else to see you.  

Because that someone else is you.  

And that is all you need.
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If you don’t like the part you play in my story, then change it.

I am accountable for my actions and you are accountable for yours.  

I get to choose how to respond to others and you get to choose how to respond to me. 

I am responsible for my part in my story and in yours and you are responsible for your part in yours and mine. 

So, if you don’t like the part you are playing, change it. 

Being accountable to and responsible for ourselves, our actions and our impact on others, is just a fundamental part of being a decent human being.  

And it is from this very basic principle that meaning, connection, purpose and ultimately love for ourselves and others is borne.

Just work on the basics and the rest will follow.

It doesn’t matter what anyone else does. 

  It doesn’t matter how much anyone else earns.  

It doesn’t matter what anyone else has.   

What matters is who you are.  

What matters is how you treat others.   

What matters is whether you have the courage, to step out and live your life.   

That is it.   

Don’t get distracted.

Two women, two friend, two swimmers, two stories, two lives, two hearts.   

We started swimming together at 5 years old and then we didn’t see each other for 30 years plus, after I stopped in my teens.   

But she was there, on the day I tentatively put my foot back in the pool, petrified of what I couldn’t do and completely in awe by what she could do.   

She held my hand, soothed my fears and showed up for me, week in week out.   

She swam slower to stay with me, swam shorter distances to encourage me and praised every extra stroke I took.   

This isn’t really about swimming, it’s about humanity - at its best.   

The sharing of my vulnerability in that pool, was rewarded by a deep and precious human connection.   

It’s the thing that makes anything possible - even a swim in an outdoor lake, in the dark, in the cold.   

Show up in whatever way you can - that’s how you truly make a difference in someone’s life.

The biggest epidemic in our society - judgement. 

Judgement is why people hide their true selves, it stops us taking action and connecting with others, in any truly meaningful way. 

Judgement drives three incredibly destructive fears: 

1. Fear of failure - we don’t live our dreams and as a result, whole lives are lost 

2. Fear of ourselves - we hide who we really are, especially the dark bits, so we never get to fully live or feel the freedom of self love 

3. Fear of not fitting in, of living outside the norms - we constantly compromise our values, desires and needs, to fit into an optical illusion of superficial and often hypocritical standards, created and sustained by others, who may never have the courage to be anything other than an empty shell.  

So, please allow your roar to be heard, stand in your own reality and do not be distracted by meaningless judgement from people, who you probably wouldn’t give a sh*t about, if you gave yourself permission to actually be you.  

Don’t be a lion led by a donkey, just be who you are meant to be. 

We need to face the reality of social media.  

It’s great for connecting with people, inspiration and getting your message out.  

But it’s busy, very busy.  

Lots of people, have lots to say.   And that’s good and bad.   

It’s good because it’s adds new perspectives and knowledge.  

It’s bad because it can be overwhelming, difficult to be heard, drives a comparison mentality and rewards short term, individual gains over long term, collective value.  

It cannot replace your core purpose, your  brand or your business.   

It is simply a vehicle, to support communications, learning and networking.   

Choose your feed well. 

Be discerning about who to follow.   

Produce meaningful and original content.   

Engage with others in a constructive and respectful manner.   

Do not be afraid to block negative trolls.   

Ultimately, it will be replaced by the next thing and that by something else.   

You are the constant in your life.   

Your core raison d’etre, your relationships, your work, your value, must be able to stand independent of social media.   

Put your efforts into who you really are, developing deep relationships with those who matter and creating content/services/products, that will truly add value to this world, with or without social media.   

You are the change we seek, not social media.

We are hiding the truth from our children.   

We are hiding our fears and vulnerability.  

We are hiding our struggles with relationships.   

We are hiding the real challenges of being a parent.  

We are hiding the tough choices we face in life.  

We are hiding our failures.  

We are hiding all of this, because we are afraid it may harm our children, that we maybe judged as bad parents, but mainly because everyone else is hiding it too and being the first to step out of the shadows and tell the truth, requires a bucket load of courage.  

The irony is that by hiding our truth, we are harming our children.   

We are leading them to believe that life is much easier, than it actually is.   

We are setting false standards, they will not be able to achieve and therefore encouraging them to hide their truth, from their children, for fear of being inadequate and judged too.  

We talk about developing resilience in our children.   

But it’s not enough to talk about it.   

We need to demonstrate it.   

And that means no more hiding our truth.   

Please show up and own up - our children need to know that being imperfect, is indeed just perfect. 

You don’t have to be the best sibling.  

You don’t have to be the best student.  

You don’t have to be the best at your job.  

You don’t have to be the best at relationships.  

You don’t have to be the best parent.   

You don’t have to be the best anything.   

You just have to do your best, be honest with yourself, be who you are meant to be and never give up.  

That’s basically it.   

The rest is just a diversion from what really matters. 

I am what I choose to be.   

I choose to be kind.  

I choose to be honest.  

I choose to be brave.   

I am not what others think of me or think I should be.   

And neither are you.   

You are who you choose to be - nobody gets to take that freedom away from you.  

Please don’t let yourself get stolen. 

It’s easy to judge others when things are going well for you.   But judgement leads to prejudice, barriers and a lack of understanding.   

So what happens when things do not go well for you?  You hide it because your afraid of judgement and what people will think.  

It’s a circular situation right?   

So, please don’t judge because until you have walked in the shoes of others, you do not truly understand the one simple truth, we can all miss - they may simply be doing the best they can, given the circumstances they are presented with.   

Life is messy, sh*t happens and you never know when that might be your world.   

Bad things can happen to good people.   

Let’s be there for each other with open arms not a judgemental mind. 

I am one of the many 1,000's of women who stepped of the career ladder to focus on their families, not because I was forced to, or did not have opportunities equal to my male counterparts, but because I choose to - and we should not forget that choice is a hugely important part of gender equality and empowerment.

I stepped of the career ladder because I was acutely aware of the amount of time and personal sacrifice my career would require - because senior roles with large pay packets and even larger responsibilities, unsurprisingly require a large commitment too.

But now I'm thinking about the future, the children are getting older, my brain aches for stimulation and I am bursting with ideas - although sadly not energy, whilst I move slowly through the menopause.  Even so, my brain works perfectly well as I have simply had children, not a lobotomy.   

And in all honesty, my career break has enabled me to grow more, learn more and be more, than I could ever have imagined when I was working full time.  

I see the world differently now, I'm more rounded, kinder, less egotistical and far more forgiving and accepting - grief, motherhood and the menopause does that for you.

I'm more curious, less insecure and more interested in finding answers, rather than having to be right or to be heard first - not having a life dependant on external validation does that for you.

I don't care what title, grade or office I get, I care about the meaning, the purpose, the intellectual depth of the work and the people I work with - basing your choice of work on intrinsic motivations, borne out of taking the time to really get to know yourself, does that for you.

I don't need career progression, I need my mind and purpose to be progressed - embracing all of who you are and what you need, whether or not that has a price tag attached to it, does that for you.

But make no mistake, no matter what work I am involved in, first and foremost I will always be a parent and homemaker - these roles are my top priority and the sooner society starts to value them far more than it does today, the better for all concerned.

So, I have no desire nor do I intend to return to a 60 hour working week, build an empire or be ‘terribly important’. I just want to use my brain, to do what I do well, without compromising the very heart of who I am.  

And I don't think this requirement is gender specific at all, nor only for parents. I think this is just a basic human need that we all have to make the very best of our lives, find ourselves and achieve some level of contentment.

We are in the midst of the Fifth Revolution - we are looking at how to create life on Mars, surely we can find a more meaningful and balanced way to work and live?

And I think the answer to this question may well do more for gender equality in the workplace than any artificial quota system.

Mark Manson's book 'Everything is F*cked - a book about hope', talks about hopelessness as: 

"the uncomfortable truth, a silent realisation that in the face of infinity, everything we could possibly care about quickly approaches zero." 

He has a point, we all die right? 

But does that mean we have no hope, no future? No, I do not believe so and neither does he.  It is precisely because of this fact, that we should all seize the day, today, because:

1. Our time here is short, no one is getting out alive

2. Very few of us are handed our dreams on a plate

3. All of us will experience loss at some point

4. We will all feel fear and be judged

But, we are not hopeless because we do have choices: 

1. We can think about mortality with a different perspective - by fully acknowledging that we do have an end date, we are more able to live in the present, as fully and authentically as possible. 

2. We can feel our intuition rather than just thinking with our heads, to enable our dreams to take shape and go after them, rather than allowing others to steal our minds and crush our spirit because no one should be allowed to tell you who you are, or what to think about yourself - that's your job alone, so please choose your words carefully and be cognisant of the constraints we often put on ourselves, because it takes more courage not to.

3. We can embrace the sadness of loss and grief as part of us, because it is feeling it that keep us alive and is a constant reminder of the joy and love that has flowed through our lives and indeed shows us how loveable we really are and that in itself means we always have hope. . 

So, the point to this post is to say that in the scope of life, mortality, the bigger picture, much of what we worry about in the here and now and allow to constrain us, is really not quite as important as we think it is and we often have more choices than we can see.

Step back, create some space, allow the light in, consider your mortality and allow your dreams to breath and start to live your life, in your way, today.

We all simply belong to ourselves:  "you only are free when you realise you belong no place — you belong every place — no place at all" Maya Angelou  

I'm a 47 year old woman. I have returned to work following a career break where I suffered from PND, experienced mortality and became the full-time carer for my children and home-maker.  

I've struggled with:  

1. Self-esteem - my career defined me, I only realised that when I gave it up.  

2. Addiction - I only realised I had an addiction when I simply could not stop, despite the destruction it caused.  

3. Judgement - I often did things because of what other's thought of me, not what I thought of myself.  

4. Mental Health - I lost myself because I had put on so many layers, I no longer knew who I was.  

5. A tough menopause - my body simply gave up on me and switched of the required hormones before my brain was ready.  

You need to define your own reality, belong to yourself and no-one else.  

1. Motherhood is not the end of your career, it is the start.  

2. Grief can break you, but you will get back up.  

3. Age is liberating, you finally learn not give too many f*cks about irrelevant stuff.  

Seize the day, it's never too late to be you.

Define your own reality.   

Stand tall as you.   

Help others as you.   

Redefine our world as you.   

Whether at an individual, collective or organisational level, transformation happens everyday.   

Let’s do it for the right reasons.   

Let’s engage our hearts, minds and souls in the process.   

Let’s drive it from a place of authenticity, care and meaning.   

Let’s use it to define a reality not yet created, which works better than the one we have now.   

Let’s make it count by making others count.   

Let’s be ourselves collectively, embracing the strengths of our differences.  

Let’s live with the courage to believe in ourselves, without needing to crush others in order to do so.   

One of the truest sayings ever ‘united we stand, divided we fall’.   

Would you like to live a life of unfulfilled potential and a relentless ache to do more or come with me and change the world by accepting ourselves?   

Every one of us counts - our thoughts and actions matter. We are all capable of creating change, for the better, one step at a time. You just need to take that step.   

Today is as good as it gets.   

Remember the future is now.